Te Quiero

Oh man, I just can’t resist any longer. After yesterday, I’m just going to have to tell you all about this guy, El Guapo. He is yummy. He’s sort of more ruggedly handsome and there’s a little something twinkling in his eye that makes him quite attractive. I first noticed him almost a year ago when he started coming to Institute. The first week, he had on a bright yellow polo shirt with the collar popped. So hoooot. I had no idea who he was and it took me a couple of weeks to find out. Imagine my dismay when I discovered that the reason I hadn’t seen him around before was because he was on his mission in Spain. Yep, he’s a mere babe. That’s part of why I’ve tried to ignore my attraction to him. But I just can’t help it. I am finally admitting that I have a crush on him. This comes after he spoke in our ward a couple of weeks ago and it was really good, and he looked really hot, and I caught him looking at me a couple of times. But let’s not get ahead of ourselves. Here’s a little backstory.

He seemed cocky and a bit full of himself at first so naturally, I was attracted, since I’m unaccountably a sucker for that sort of behavior. He came to things, but rarely talked to anyone. He would make the rare comment in Institute, but none of my friends seemed to be friends with him, so I had no way of getting in there. Then on the fateful Guy Fawkes Night at Maverick’s house where I first met the other stupid American girl, I got my first chance to really see El Guapo in his element. When we arrived in Oxford, some of us wanted to get something to eat. I thought we were just going to pop to a shop and grab some snacks, but we ended up at a kebab shop. I was perfectly fine with it since it gave me some one on one time with him. He was hilarious. He has this little smirk on his face most of the time and his delivery is sharp. He doesn’t say much, but when he does, it’s worth the wait. Needless to say, I enjoyed dinner very much. When we finished eating, I discovered that besides being witty, he’s also a gentleman. He paid for my meal and earned himself some huge brownie points. After dinner we went back to Maverick’s house and I was officially smitten. That was clear back in November, but it was the first time I really started to think perhaps there was something there.

Anyway, since then we’ve been casual friends and said our occasional hello at activities and such, but I’ve had a hard time figuring out ways to hang out outside of Church stuff. I’ve sort of tried to convince myself that he’s too young, not clever enough, too much of a lad, and so on and so on. It’s also partly that I’m shy around him. I find him so attractive that I can hardly flirt with him. I know it’s silly, but somehow I find it easier to be flirty with boys that I don’t actually like. And I think El Guapo is ‘too cool’ for me so it makes me feel a little intimidated. I think though, that he is actually more shy than he is ‘cool.’ He doesn’t talk to anyone, really, so it’s not just me. And while he doesn’t say much, when he does speak, he usually has something good to say. I’ve been impressed a lot of the comments he makes at Institute and as I’ve gotten to know him better, I’ve realized that he is clever and he does have a good testimony. So now, I have to like him even more.

I saw him at Institute last night and I said hello. He seemed keen to continue the conversation so we chatted a bit. Then I needed to say hello to someone and had to squeeze past him. I made sure to leave my hand on his shoulder as I walked by. Then I of course I had to do it again on the way back. I think it was a good decision because when he left, he made sure to say goodbye. Though I’m still a little unsure of how to get more time with him, I think the effort I’ve put in is beginning to pay off.